another one...really?

so my life these last few months has seemed to fly by in just a few moments...i would not have believed you if you would have told me in June that it would go so quickly.  i am now a little over two months away from bringing another life into this world and at this moment, i am scared.  a mean streak in my very sweet, adoring little m has surfaced and d and i are beside ourselves on what to do.  we have talked to him about being nice to the babies at school, but 99% of the time he hits them and is in time out for a good portion of the day.  and he still won't eat.  never eats anything that they have for lunch at school.  frustrating.  and for this very pregnant mama, it brings me to tears.  i can stand all the physical setbacks from pregnancy and being on my feet for 8 hours running all day, but emotionally i am tested day in and day out.  i really need a mental health day and for a little boy to understand that hitting isn't nice instead of just telling me he will be nice.  sigh. 

d took the day off with me yesterday to attend my 2 hour doctor appointment that should have really only lasted 5 minutes and to do a little holiday shopping.  we had a good day.  got everything we needed for q's crib and it's all set up.  most days i can't wait for him to be here and then little one mentioned above becomes devil child and then i just want q to stay in longer.  i do long to hold the little guy and hear his sweet little coos.  (hold my next thought...a stinky diaper awaits me)  ok...i am anxious to see if q will look like me or d or a mixture like m.  hair.  i just want him to have lots of hair.  and dark hair. 

s's baby shower coming soon...trying to get ready for that.  need to figure out some games and prizes, food, make a few things, make invites, etc.  my next two weekends are booked...need to get on it.  speaking of next two weekends...5 years is coming up in 10 days.  can't believe we hit a milestone or are about to.  some of the best and worst times in my life have been in these last 5 years.  i am hoping for more best times and not so many worst times in the next 5 years. 

house has come together...just need to get things on the wall.  would like to hang some scrappy stuff.  why don't they make frames for 8.5 x 11 pages.  i hate 12x12 yet those are the only frames they have.  seriously, cater to all of us please.  eventually, i will get it done.  mama comes down this weekend...i am sure she will help me.

it is nice to sit here and hear the sound of m playing with his beads with pandora playing in the background...very thankful at the moment.  now to search around for tips on this hitting madness...feel free to enlighten me here if you can.  cause really...how this sweet little face can be so mean will never make sense to me.