much needed

i am so unbelievably happy at this moment that i can't even type the right words...or spell them right without backspacing a gazillion times! can't say on here why i am so freaking happy, but i will be able to soon...things are looking up for me and my heart isn't so sad anymore...it's still hurting, but it's better...maxx is getting so big and i can't believe that i am planning his first birthday already! my baby will be one...arghhhhh...how did that happen! he has been enduring lots of basketball games lately...he will be a baller for sure...his daddy will make sure he is a good one, too. right now he is trying to chew on computer cords...he loves to crawl with things in both hands and he will walk holding onto anything...he loves the dogs water bowl and will put his head down and crawl so freaking fast to it and have it spilled all over him and the floor before you can even blink. he i putting his blocks in the top of his alphabet train and starting to clap and wave...he is a smart little guy or big guy i should say...i am very proud of him...he is amazing! dave needs to get his work schedule done so i will post some pics later...night everyone...sweet dreams.