what a start...

...i can't get into the details...my heart won't let me...but a new start for 09 won't be happening...at least not yet...i thought it would be a good year...i made goals for myself that i really was interested in keeping...i wanted to get back to the y and train for a run...i would feel better about myself and it would please my husband for me to run with him, too...i wanted to get our house in order...the kitchen redone, the bathroom, get carpet put in the living room...those things are happening now because i can't live with the old...literally...my room is completely taken apart...there is no platform bed, there is nothing on the walls and 99% of what was in there will not return...it is a big empty room waiting for a new start...and that is what it will get...i picked out our new duvet cover-deep chocolate brown with a monochromatic flower design(the size i need was gone though), new sagey green sheets that are oh-so-soft(i was able to get those today), and a pillow sham to match the duvet(but they only had one)...so 1/2 of the bed new start was completed today and we will get the paint tomorrow for the walls...once there is new paint and new covers then i will be able to sleep in there again...that will be my "new year", my new start...we picked out carpet yesterday and some tiles for the entryway so i feel good about that...can't wait for that to be complete...decided to sand the cupboards down in the kitchen and paint them cream and antique them...new hardware and it will look fabulous...if you need anything just ask, because i am clearing this place out and i am not sure that anything but new will be left...new starts everywhere...it is much needed...i need it...my heart needs it.